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Undone by rot.

By evangeline de souza ferreira
Updated April. 19, 2009 8:57 A.M. , decaying.

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An abandoned pool overgrown with several different types of greenery and fungi.


DONT YOU WANT TO FEEL THE GRIME BUILD UP UNDERNEATH YOUR FINGERNAILS ? THE DIRT BRUSHING UP AGAINST YOUR BODY ? THE SHRUBBERIES AND PLANTS BRUSH AGAINST YOUR DECOMPOSING ROTTING BODY YOU LEFT , THE OVERGROWN MADNESS EATING YOUR SKIN , EACH PROTEIN STRUCTURE OF COLLAGEN AND KERATIN COMING UNDONE BY THE DETRITIVORES

SO PUTRID.

I WAS THERE WHEN YOU CAME TO BEING , I WATCHED YOUR BONES LEARN OF THEIR OWN WEIGHT , THE LOAM TOOK YOU BACK LIKE A MOTHER GONE RABID , PULLED EACH FRAYING THREAD OF YOU APART , YOUR VEINS RIP OPEN LIKE A SACK OF INFESTED LITTER , I WAS THERE WHEN THE BEETLES SUNG PSALMS IN THE CAVES OF YOUR CARCASS WRITHING BLISSFULLY , I WILL BE THERE , PERPETUALLY WATCHING YOUR FRAIL FLESH COMING UNDONE

I WAS THERE WHEN YOUR RIBCAGE WAS SPLIT OPEN BY THE GREENERY LIKE SPRING SOWED MADNESS IN YOUR HEART , I WILL SEE TO IT THAT YOUR ANATOMY WILL FEEL NOTHING BUT THE ECSTASY OF UNBECOMING , TO EMBELLISH THE IMPURITIES IN THE SKY IS LIKE TILING THE BED OF A ROUGH SEA , THE RECLAMATION OF NATURE IS TRUE REGULARITY IN THE MYRIAD THAT IS EROSION , EVERY CELL CRYING LOVINGLY UNDER THE GUILT OF FUTILITY

NOT EVEN THE WORMS WILL REMEMBER YOUR ATROPHIED SHAPE

OH , TO BE UNDONE SO INTENTFULLY , AND TO HAVE THE FOXGLOVE SIP FROM YOUR SPINE , SO PURPOSEFUL WE PREACH OF OUR CENSURES ON THAT SODDEN ALTAR , THE SINEW CLUNG LIKE PRAYER-WORN GARMENTS SINGING OF ITS LAST RITES , THE SWARMING CHOIR OF A PERVERTED INSTRUMENT YOU RENDER , WHAT OF YOU IS LEFT IN THE MOSS STITCHING YOUR SOUL SHUT , ITS PALE FINGERS SPREADING THROUGH THE EULOGY OF COLLAPSE , THE MYCELIUM KNOWS OF YOUR TATTERING LIGAMENTS MORE THAN YOUR BODY EVER DID

THERE IS NO POINT IN RATIONALIZING ME
I AM BORN OF YOUR INUNDATED HATRED
I WAS FORGED WHEN YOU COMMITTED YOUR ORIGINAL SIN
I AM THE BATED BREATH YOU BREATHE AMIDST YOUR BLASPHEMY
SELF-DOUBT IS WHAT BRANDED ME
DEATH IS WHAT AWAITS US BOTH SHOULD YOU TAKE HIS HAND
HEED THIS , MY RIDICULOUS SELF

THERE IS NO LULLING IN BETWEEN ROTTING AND VIRTUALIZATION , NO COMFORT IN THE COMPUTINGS NOR THE RUSTLE OF THE DEAD LEAVES , THERE IS NO MEANING TO LIVING UNLESS YOU GIVE IT YOUR OWN , UNDERSTAND THIS INEVITABILITY , BRACE THE PAIN CROWDING ANY NERVES YOU STILL MIGHT HAVE , BRACE THE LONELINESS OF EXISTING IN BETWEEN THE PALISADES OF BEING

KILL ME AND BECOME , MELANIE



Oi, mamãe, desculpa por não ter te escrito.
I'm going to ask my therapist to up my dosage, I've been struggling since he disappeared. I know you're scared, I know you have questions, I do too. I was really close to him, so I took it really harshly. I'm going to go to that forest we met, where we carved our names into the bark and slept under the spring shade, the leaves grazing on my cheeks. It's closure. I'll stop shutting everyone out, I understand it's high time I get to live again. I'm just tired. I found life in him when everybody else turned me away.

I'll be there at the next reunião, okay? Call me when you get this.

A phone showing several missed calls, dimmed in the dark.

DID YOU EVER ANSWER , MELANIE?